Friday, May 2, 2014
Mind Error X003, Contact your Brain Provider
But something happened, I am not sure what. Probably I fell during a flight and got hit in the head. Maybe that villager with the catapult did hit something that damaged the pondering section in my brain. I am really not sure. The fact is that no matter how much I try, I can't get into the phylosophic hall of my mind palace and this gives me a feeling of great loss. GREAT loss.
The year began with a lot of inner struggle for me. I ran into many personal walls. I was forced to look into ruthless inner mirrors and accept what I was looking. But somehow it happened to me the same than to Don Quijote, I think. In order to "cure" him from this madness that made him believe he was this gallant knight who fought giants and witches and had the purest of ladies as his lady, his family made him face mirrors where he saw he was indeed old and fragile and weak. That he was just the laughing stock of town. His spirit was defeated by what he saw and accepted.
I faced a sort of Knight of Mirrors too. My fight with him has lasted about three months. As I struggled with the mirror reflection, I came to accept the truth reflected. This brought me peace, or so I thought. I am not sure because deep inside, there is something, some trace of essence that tells me I am not completely at peace. I am more like sedated. If I were truly at peace, I would be able to think clearer about all those things I like to think about. I would be able to get in contact with the endless source of Life's wisdom and share it with you, like before. But I can't. Not anymore. I'm blinded by the shiny reflections on those mirrors. I am not sure if I am really flying or I'm just deluded to believe so, and I'm actually down in the ground.
I miss something and I miss it so very much, life is starting to look dull. I forgot something but for the life of me, I don't know what it is. I wish Father Dragon "The Great" were alive, so I could have his advice.
Does anyone out there know anything about dragon malfunctioning?