Let me start by saying I absolutely adore this book. I received it as a gift and I really believe I was not gifted with a book, but with a second chance of making dreams possible. It is divided in a 12 week program and as the cover reads, it is a "spiritual path to higher creativity". I'm still working on Week 8 but there has not been a single week I've had not had an epiphany, or many. I will trust the reference to the first four chapters and their content to my fellow artists in the Club because I have a greater need. I want to share with you the impact of this book in my core as a creative being.
However, this is like the Neverending Story. You become the main character and closing the book does not guarantee things won't keep happening inside you and that your world won't change. On the other hand, reading it fast without really doing the homework won't render any benefit. It's like buying the medicine but not taking it, or take it every other day.
I wanted this book to help me finish my WIP but yesterday I wrote on FB: "Wouldn't just be the irony of ironies that I would quit writing over a book that was supposed to inspire the writer in me? Didn't see that coming." The paradox, Father Dragon Writes that he won't write anymore.
Where this statement came from? Synchronicity. While this book and its exercises have made me think, laugh, get mad and cry (a lot); my surroundings feel like creative Jumanji. I ponder, I execute and something "coincidental" manifests in unexpected ways. Messages came that made echo in some raw wound in cleaning process.
|The Ruthless Engineer. |
Artist: Al Diaz
People say I have many talents I'm good at. Truth is I'm acceptable as an amateur but far from a pro. I have the talent but I lack the knowledge. I had the opportunity to study arts at the best Fine Arts school in Mexico. For many reasons I couldn't take it and this became one of my most bitter regrets, a wound that still hurts like hell.
"Pain and Art...A match made in Heaven?" Julie Luek's post
I was born sick. I've lived half my life imprisoned by illness and by walls. In order to stay on your feet in the face of an incapacitating ailment, you first have to come to terms with your reality. Reality was I couldn't move. Whining about all the things I wanted to do but couldn't was the certain path to self-destruction. I killed my dreams in order to let my heart and mind live. The question in Julie's post was if you really need to suffer to become a good artist. I didn't suffer to become a writer. I became a writer because I suffered and I needed a more creative and constructive way to express my pain, other than hating the world, me and my fate. Writing about living made me forget I wasn't living but surviving. Killing characters on paper made me forget about killing myself.
|Darth Vader (mixed techniques)|
Artist: Al Diaz
Back to The Artist's Way, if there is one thing this book does for you is to help you believe in possibility. This book made me remember all those dreams I killed. At the time, they felt more like a boulder tied to the neck. Now they are more like the hard tissue over a wound that never healed. The song I never sang, the flight I never took, the kiss I never gave. My time to go after those dreams was long gone. They were my heart's desire but so what? I got wisdom and resilience in exchange so I guess that's okay. Besides, I am too old... or maybe not. 802 is still young for a dragon, some of you said.
"In order to be able to catch the ball, first you need to REALLY want to catch it." The Artist's Way.
In spite of the recent lesions, my health is improving in a significant way. Physically impossible is becoming possible. The Artist's Way is having me believing that impossible can become possible in the creative side. Dead dreams can be reborn and achieved. I had not realized that I truly believed I was a bad dragon who deserved all the misfortune I've endured. The book has helped me to see this and work on it. I am not a bad dragon. I am a good dragon to whom bad things has happened. I do deserve my dreams to come true. I deserve the song, the flight and the kiss and no matter how old I am, it's always good time to start making dreams come true.
|Avatar, the Last Air Bender. Nickelodeon|
"The more I think about writing, the more I paint," I told Sir Jeff not long ago.
I wrote when my wings were broken. Now my wings are healing and stretching. Sometimes they can even hold me off the ground for a short while. The Artist's Way is telling the dragon there's still chance to conquer all those denied horizons, even now at this age. It's nudging me to try all those wonderful things of life I could only imagine when I wrote about them. It gave me a compass that, like Jack Sparrow's, is pointing to what I desire most. And my desire is to paint me a story.
|Spirited Away. Ghibli Studios|
How old will I be by the time I can make Agnipath look like Nickelodeon's "Avatar. The Last Air Bender" or there's a Father Dragon Studios that create something worth of Ghibli Studios? The same age I'll be if I don't try. The difference is I'll be a step closer each day, if I do. That's the essence of The Artist's Way.
Thank you, Mike, for this gift. Thank you all wonderful writer friends who embraced me into your community. You've taught me so much! No. I'm not saying goodbye. I'm just celebrating you today because I'll be away on Friday. :) Till next week.
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